Thanks for the heads up, Miss Pearson. I bought a copy and was deeply moved by the introduction.
Although my situation was very different from yours, I recognize your experience. I felt that way about my mission and ever since.
It was like my conscience was constantly being violated and yet I didn't give myself permission to leave because I thought I knew that the church was true and my own suffering was no warrant to deny that.
As the philosopher Karl Popper liked to quip, any amoeba leaves an unhospital environment. I guess, I was less intelligent than an amoeba for long stretches of my life.
Instead of leaving an abusive environment, I kept going back for more punishment. In my case, it resulted in paralysis where I just did not know what to do anymore.
Thanks for sharing your experience. The explanation of your state of mind is brilliant and speaks to the experience of many of our co-religionists.
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Will a nook version (Barnes & Noble) be available soon, she asks hopefully?
It will be available on Nook but not sure how soon. I'll let you know...
Thanks for the heads up, Miss Pearson. I bought a copy and was deeply moved by the introduction.
Although my situation was very different from yours, I recognize your experience. I felt that way about my mission and ever since.
It was like my conscience was constantly being violated and yet I didn't give myself permission to leave because I thought I knew that the church was true and my own suffering was no warrant to deny that.
As the philosopher Karl Popper liked to quip, any amoeba leaves an unhospital environment. I guess, I was less intelligent than an amoeba for long stretches of my life.
Instead of leaving an abusive environment, I kept going back for more punishment. In my case, it resulted in paralysis where I just did not know what to do anymore.
Thanks for sharing your experience. The explanation of your state of mind is brilliant and speaks to the experience of many of our co-religionists.
I am glad that you are in a better place.
I just finished my Kindle copy of Dancing With Crazy. It was fascinating and I could recognize my own mistakes and pathologies in your experience.
I hope that anyone who is interested in Mormonism will read your memoirs. What has happened to you, happened to my mother, my sisters, and myself.
We just spread it out between us, so that none of us had to bear the full brunt of your burden. My respect for your accomplishments.
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